How do you let the person know what you are doing is for her own good? Because all she talks about when you are alone is how her partner would never seem to understand her need? And how great the pain would be if and when the partner finds out about the affair? There is no justification at all of the affair because the partner has given all that she has and more. How do you keep the strength to be silent and intentionally hurt her knowing it's the factor for the affair to turn cold? Knowing it's what must be done so she can ultimately make up her mind and choose what has never been a choice in the first place? In her balance of keeping the affair and not letting the partner get any hint at all of what's happening, emotions just cant be contained at all times. Getting on a fully loaded boat is always a dangerous risk. Especially if the boat has been on rocky seas. The addition of one more might tip the boat over. If the captain who allowed the extra will be asking the person to row her own boat, she wouldnt hesitate. Actually the extra should be the one to decide when too much of a company is enough. Initiatives should be taken by her to ensure the boat stays safe and solid under the capable handle of the captain. It should be me who should take the initiative to leave her alone. Not allow the longing to gain control of logic. So she doesnt have anything to worry about. It hurts. A lot. And it hurts even more to show strength to listen to her despair about their relationship and wail about the pain her partner would feel when she ultimately finds out. What's the other person supposed to do? Get out of the picture as fast as she can, right? Para wala nang kelangang pag isipan. Kung ang paraan para mastop na un is to hurt the other person. Then so be it. Kung di makuha sa santong tiisan, eh di sa santong iwanan.

Ano lang naman ang hurt na yan, ill get over it. And she will as well. Once she realizes how lucky she is na di natuloy ang affair, that she found out about the other person's pangit na ugali habang maaga pa. Then she'll appreciate her partner more.. it's ensuring they stay together. Not a graceful exit, but an exit nonetheless.. i hate it. And crying just dont help. Because i break down. And nobody's here for me. I carry my own weight. My tears are going nowhere. I believe this will pass. But for now, let me suffer...